I thought I was going to write about this Spring topic a different way, but I’ve had a different week so you’re getting a different take. I’m talking about something I rarely ever talk about, so enjoy because it isn’t likely to happen often and I am likely to take it down once I realize I didn’t want to talk about it publicly. 😂
First, I’ll start by saying that last week was a big one astrologically. We had the Spring Equinox if you live in the Northern Hemisphere, the astrological new year, and a new moon all within a couple of days. That’s fertile ground for doing your personal work! Here’s how mine went…
A Spring Ritual
Monday was the first day of Spring, and on this day I had to randomly change my phone number. Long story, probably won’t get into it later, but it was neither planned nor my excitement for the day.
I sent out my new number to my contacts and so many people got back to me, wondering how life is going and what I’m up to since moving across the country.
One of these people was a previous lover.
It’s been years since we talked, and I didn’t imagine I’d speak with him again this lifetime. It was not an easy ending.
This time when he messaged, I wrote back.
My second question was “Why didn’t you tell me about her?”
I didn’t think I’d be that direct.
He responded, and it was an honest response.
I learned a lot about myself in our time together. I accessed deep sensuality, pleasure, and thrill. Having been a teen mom, these were feelings I hadn’t really opened myself up to before. Our time together was one of incredible growth and self discovery.
I strove to be a healing presence in his life. It pleased me very much to relax him. Outside of caring for my children, it was the first time that I really tapped into my healing capacity with another.
In our conversation, he shared the impact of my presence in his life, both at the time we were together and in the years that followed. I appreciated hearing it. It helped me transform the meaning of our time together, and what it means to me today.
I let go of a fear of what others would think of me conversing with him.
I let go of judgment for him.
I had already released the pain of the whole thing, but this conversation provided a deeper release. I realized I no longer feared that talking with him could hurt me.
I let go of my ideas of right and wrong and opened myself up to our exchange.
I have been so grateful that I let myself go there!
Spring is a time of all things new. But you can’t just, like, pile some new stuff on a bunch of bullshit. It’s important to clear out the old. It naturally makes space for the new. Let’s do that…
I’m going to take you on a journey into your pain. Here you can heal some final pages of unresolved content that may be stirring up within you.
Are you ready? Let’s do it.
Take a deep breath, and let yourself go to a place in your life where you’re harboring anger or resentment. Really go there. Like, transport yourself back into that time and see it from your own eyes. Re-live it.
Breathe gently and deeply, allowing your muscles to relax.
Open yourself up to the feeling.
How does it feel? Where do you feel it in your body?
What thoughts come up for you in this space?
The feelings may shift from anger, to fear, to anxiety, to regret. Keep sitting with each one. Let yourself feel them. If you need to cry, cry. If you need to yell, yell. Like, seriously. It’s a vulnerable thing to do but if you’ve got some deep feelings you’re holding onto, this is important work.
Comfort that version of you as you move through that space. Tell yourself the words you needed to hear at that time to be soothed. I love you. It’s ok. You are safe. I’m sorry for what you’re going through. I’m here with you.
If you’re open to deeper healing, do this next.
Start saying these words to yourself:
I forgive you.
I love you.
Keep saying them, really feeling them. Be curious and open. Notice what comes up.
Once you’ve done this for a time, extend it to the other in the situation that caused harm.
I forgive you.
I love you.
The first time will probably feel like what the fuck. I’m not apologizing to or thanking the person who hurt me. But just sit with it. Keep saying it. Open yourself up as you keep coming at it from a different perspective.
Once you’ve done this step, the final step is to extend these same words out to the whole planet, blanketing every creature with this healing and loving intention.
This exercise really isn’t about the other! It’s about you, your personal growth and your transformation. It’s about being the alchemist.
When you find the courage to look at things that hurt, you can clear away these deeply seated feelings and find relief. You create a fresh outlook and emerge as a powerful healer of yourself.
Creating Your Fresh Start
If you’re feeling ready to embark on a journey of personal growth and transformation, I welcome you to work with me through either Reiki or coaching. These practices can help you clear away old, deeply-seated emotions and feelings, making space for new beginnings and personal transformation.
With Reiki, I can help you tap into your own healing capacity, while with coaching, I can guide you through exercises and practices that will help you unlock your full potential.
Whether you’re looking to clear away old pain, find relief from anxiety, or just embrace new beginnings, I’m here to support you every step of the way. Take the first step today and book a session with me. I look forward to helping you on your journey.